motherhood survial tip.

For a long time I really tried to be the perfect mother (whatever that means) and felt like I was failing. I decided to let that go and just be a happy mother. While that means that my laundry pile is never caught up (unless noni is visiting... We love you noni!) it means that I am a whole lot less stressed out!

One of my newest secret confessions is the contents of my childrens' breakfast. you ready for this?

Granola bars. Every morning my children eat granola bars. Yes, I could home-make them for healthier versions, but that's more than i can handle at the moment, so I splurge on granola bars every week.

love my life as mommy and wife. Granola bars certainly help the cause. Thank you Quaker Oats Chewy. Hugs and Kisses for you!

Things I want to write about: boobs

So, this breastfeeding thin is going waaay better than it did with Micah or grayson. Yay for late term preemies! While in the hospital Shepard had jaundice and was really sleepy and a lazy nurser. She was young and tiny and this particular hospital doesn't often deal with young, tiny babies so the staff was uncomfortable with her. They kept telling me to keep waking her up to nurse and I kept telling them I needed a pump. The nurse told me that "babies are better at getting milk out than a pump." which is generally true, but when a baby is that tiny and that lethargic something has to give. Also, my body wasn't used to making milk fr babies, it was used to reacting to a pump!  I finally got a pump and then we had to devise a supplemental nursing system because the hospital doesn't usually have preemies and so they didn't have any sns available! Haha. We rigged a cobtraption of iv tubing and a syringe. It was awesome! 

Shepard was still losing weight and so I asked for some formula while we waited for my milk to come in. I had to sign the craziest waiver I've ever seen in my life to get that formula, AND they wouldn't let Brian sign it instead of me. I was nursing Shep and it was definitely still a two handed process, so I asked if Brian could sign it for me and they said no! Haha. It included statements like:

"your baby is 50% more likely to get cancer, have depression, and be addicted to Cocaine for the rest of their lives if you give formula." 

"babies are designed to nurse and breast milk is 412% more effective at helping babies get into Harvard." 

Ok not really that last one, but it listed every ailment you could think of that your baby could get and then said that formula increases the chances of your baby getting it. Insanity! My plan was definitely to breastfeed, but it really bothered me that I had to go through some crazy hoops to feed my baby the best way I saw fit at that time. How is it their business to prevent me from formula feeding if I want to?! Lots of babies are formula fed and I am so thankful that we have formula as an option! Now the milk making is going well and I am so grateful for that! 

A random factoid about breast milk and Shepard: she only poops once a week-ish because the breast milk provides perfect nutrition and so there is no waste to get rid of. How cool is that?! 

Things I want to write about. A series.

I miss blogging, so I'm back for now. Life gets busy with 3 littles demanding my attention at every waking moment. 

This is post number 1 on a series entitled: things I want to write about. 

Sub-title: embarrassing things that happened while hospitalized. 

While being very pregnant (for me at least) in the hospital, 34ish weeks, I sneezed. Well, actually, I snissed... While lying in bed. Do you know what that meant? I had to call the nurse and tell her I PEED MY BED and ask her to change the sheets. So awesome. 

Speaking of snissing, I'd like to introduce you to a word I made up: vomissing. If you have any deduction skills you may be able to gather what vomissing is from the last paragraph. If not I will break it down. Vomiting+peeing at the same time. It's actually the first clue I had that it might be time to make a trip to L&D. I was vomissing and yelled for Brian to call my OB to see if puking was a l&d or "continue to lay in bed" situation. It was l&d. 

While in the hospital I was put on zofran to help curtail the puking my blood pressure meds caused. Zofran is a god-send of a miracle drug, but it stops my bowels from working. Because I was in the hospital for so long I became quite chatty with my nurses. After 4 days without any "movement" I decided it was probably time to make mention of this fact to my nurse. After we were done chatting about my kids and her kids I had to somehow figure out how to hear te conversation toward the fact that I hadn't pooped in 4 days! Awesome! I ended up just blurting it out because how else do you insert that into everyday combo? Haha. Prune juice and several laxatives later, I avoided THE RECTAL SUPPOSITORY that was offered. Zomg, no gracias! 

Also while pregnant I suffered from symphis pubic dysfunction. (dislocating pubic bone) it is excruciatingly awful pain anytime you move one leg away from the other, you know, like, when you walk. I was getting out of the shower at the hospital and trying to get dressed. I couldn't lift my leg while standing to put my sweats, I needed to sit down to be able to do it. The doctor started to walk In while i was in the middle of this attempt and I was butt naked. 

Good times. Stay tuned for the next installment of "things I want to write about."

The final countdown!

So, today I am 30 weeks and 1 day pregnant.

On this day in my pregnancy with Micah I was put on bed rest.

On this day in my pregnancy with grayson I was still teaching up a storm.

On this day in my pregnancy with Shepard I took a 4 hr nap! I am so exhausted! 

We celebrated grayson turning two this weekend and I didn't take enough pictures! It was a tutus and ties themed party and she had a blast! My mom stocked her up with bitty baby gear and my dad made her a baby crib. It's adorable! 

Micah was in heaven because his baby cousin was there! 

I thought it was awesome how many family members we had there! All of the grandparents, my brothers and fiancée, and a baby cousin! We had out awesome friends come too! 

Yay for grayson and yay for staying pregnant! 

Overheard in the wood household

"mommy, I'm sorry I spilled fire on you."

"stop putting that in your hair!"

"Grayson, you're getting guacamole in your eye!"

"that's uh-rare-ee-us, mom." (hilarious)

Funny story.

I Was attempting to convince Brian to make me chocolate covered strawberries at 9pm. My argument went like this:

Me: honey, will you please just melt the chocolate and bring me some strawberries? I will dip them and eat them myself.



And because he is awesome he did melt the chocolate and then went to clean the strawberries and found that a CATERPILLAR was living in the strawberries and they were all gross.
Wah Wah.

The story of why I walked out of panera.

I was a having a day. Nothing was going as I had planned, and I was tired and hungry and grumpy.

I had to go get blood work done and after giving 17 vials of blood and not getting the pee jug I needed because the lab was dumb, I called Brian and asked him to order panera so that I could pick it up on the way home. He did and texted me that it would take about 30 minutes.

I start my car and head from the lab (17 vials of blood lighter) to panera. I figure I can grab a drink and wait inside until my food is ready, no big deal. I waited patiently in line and when it was my turn the conversation went like this:

Me: I'm here for a to-go order that was called in. I'd like to also add a drink to that.
Girl: uh, lindsay? Didn't you call that in, like, 8 minutes ago?
Me: I still need to pay for the food, don't I?
Girl: (under her breath) I told you it would take 30 minutes.

AND THEN SHE ROLLED HER EYES AT ME.

Me: cancel it. I will be eating somewhere else.

And I walked out.

Closing time.

We're set to close on April 4th.
Shit just got real.

18 months!

The G meister is 18 months old! I really can't believe it!

She is so much fun and and just a joy to have in the fam. Her 18 month appt isn't until Tuesday, but I'm guessing she's about 21 lbs.

She can say:
Bup (up)
Down
Teh-too (thank you)
Uh-oh
Dog-dog
Pupp-ee
Pish (fish)
Pretty
Yay
Birdie
Moo
Dada
Mama
Bubba (Micah)
Hi
Belly

She is obsessed with dogs and puppies. She loves 101 Dalmatians and random YouTube videos of puppies. She'll hold on to jack jack's face and hug him or give him a kiss. she likes to stand at the pantry and pick out her snack. She loves music and dances whenever she hears it (yay!) she also likes to wear my necklaces around the house and say "pit-ee!" it's adorable. She and her brother definitely cause some ruckus; like today when he slid his mattress halfway off of his bed to make a slide. (Obviously) Micah is still her favorite person ever and he is smitten with her too.
Oh, Gigi bear! You'll always be my little baby Gray!

Some songs by Micah.

Gum-Num style

Heeeey Lexi baby! Oooh! Oooh! Ooh! Ooh!
Woop ah gum num style.

And repeat. Over. And over. And over.
Then ask mom, "who's Lexi?"


While riding in the car gigi began to fuss. I asked Micah to sing her a song. He came up with this little diddy.

Rock a bye.

Rock a bye turtles ii-i-in their nest.
Lots of baby turtles ii-in their nest.
When the shark comes, the turtles will run away
And all the baby turtles will go-o to sleep.

Another day, another stomach bug.

So, we've had quite a week. One by one the woods have dropped like flies with an awful stomach bug. It hit g last weekend and then Brian was down with it on Tuesday and I came down with it on Wednesday. Unfortunately because of the yucky ra and lupus meds I have been taking my immune system is basically shot and I got really sick; 104 fever and all.

By today, I really wasn't doing well and b took me to the ER. I couldn't walk in so b had to get a wheelchair and wheel me in. Awesome. They took one look at me and brought me right in to triage. 2 bags of Iv fluids, some zofran, and 3 hours later I feel 1000x better.

About half way through bag #1 of Iv fluids I started to perk up and check out what was going on around me. They had no beds available, so I was treated in their triage room which opens to the front desk. I got to hear everything! (ps this makes hippa a joke!)

One guy came in the day before and found out he had a brain tumor. He was a kaiser patient so they patched him up as best as they could and then he went to kaiser for brain imaging. Kaiser sent him home after taking some pictures. Fast forward to today and the guy returns not feeling well. They basically tell him we can't do a whole lot to help you without knowing what the tumor looks like/where it's location is. He goes to the palm desert kaiser to get copies of the images. Meanwhile, the nurses call kaiser and get the pics sent over to them. It turns out they guys brain was falling out of his skull and the nurses called him to get h back there ASAP! He shows back up and is ushered away. Another dr calls the dr at the front desk and is yelling at her about a ct scan, she responds with "I have a guy with a herniating brain! That's more important than the ct scan!" ha.

There were various fakers that I got to watch nurses mock. An ankle sprain, a nauseous girl, and a crazy guy who needed a catheter changed but then disappeared.

There was an older guy that was brought in by his dentist! He went in to get a toothache checked out, his bp was crazy high and his dentist actually drove him to the ER!!! How awesome is that?!?!

Major shout out goes to my sweet hubby who sat and entertained the (hungry, napless, and sometimes barefooted) kiddos in the waiting room for 3 hours. He rocks!

New Car!

We got a new (to us!) car this weekend! We said good bye to Brian's focus (sob) and hello to my dad's Toyota Avalon. He upgraded to a Lexus because he's a fancy pants and very generously gave us his car. We are so excited to not have to pay that car payment any more! Hallelujah!

The ushe.

Ya know what I hate? When people don't update their blogs!
😉

We are living. I'm down with RA blah-ness. G has a stomach bug, and Micah is just crazy! Haha!

I started teaching at a studio in the desert, Dance Dimensions. I am enjoying being back in a studio with my tap shoes on! I had headshots done last weekend and asked if G could come with me and take a pic in a tutu. The director said yes. This was really cool because the photographer, her husband, is the photographer for Riverdance as well as several other big ballet companies. (and really who can resist this girl?)

Bedtime thoughts.

Ya know the saying, "if a tree falls in the forest, does it still make a sound?"

Here's my current question:
"if I turn the monitor off, will the children still be talking?"

Mom life.

I went to target today to score an awesome deal on a chevron crib sheet. (normally $9.99, I got it for $2.99!!!) while walking in the store I felt something wet on my leg.
It was really warm today, about 85*, so I figured it was sweat and wiped it off.

It was not sweat.

It was a GIANT booger.

No, I have no idea how a GIANT booger got on my leg.

Just another day in the life here in lindsayland.

Micahism

Brian: Micah, how many more brothers or sisters do you want?

Micah: how many do I need to get a bunk bed? I want to sleep on the top.

I really love these kids.

A lot. A lot. A lot.

This is the day that will not end.

Wow. Today has been a weird/long/tiring day.
I'm exhausted. And fussy. And my everything hurts.

Micah woke up complaining of a sore throat. I called to make an appointment and they were able to get him in this afternoon. Hallelujah. The pediatrician's office is near Joann's and I wanted to get some fabric for a project for my niece. So, we left a little early to run that errand.

I pick my fabric, get a number for the cutting table and wait for the four people ahead of me. Grayson proceeds to pitch a fit; crying, yelling "up!" and hitting me. Fun times! They finally call number 41 and an old lady cuts in front of me!
Whiskey. Tango. Foxtrot.
I complain to the lady next to me and then let it go.

We get to the pediatrician and micah has a meltdown because he doesnt want the dr to look in his ears. I then bribe him with a drumstick ice cream cone from target if he stops fussing. Awesome parenting skillz, i know. Micah finally lets the doctor check him out. Micah has pneumonia because of course he does. We get our stack of prescriptions and head out. While we are checking out the MA mentions that our pediatrician in North Carolina won't release the kids' medical records because they already released them to another doctor and won't re-release them. Awesome. And illegal. Add that to my to-do list for tomorrow, along with driving to Tustin to see a rheumatologist that won't treat my excruciating 10 day long headache over the phone. Wah.

So, we drive to target to fill the prescriptions. The pharmacy tech is less than pleasant. It is the strangest thing; I walk up to the counter and they don't acknowledge my presence. I wait 5ish minutes and the guy fi.na.lly comes to the counter and then just waits for me to start the conversation. They don't have 2 of the 4 prescriptions needed and the guy informs me that he has 13 prescriptions ahead of me so it will be an hour and a half before its ready.... And then asks me whether or not I want to fill them! My kid needs the medicine so my other option would be to find a new pharmacy, target man, and I'm on borrowed time with the terror of a toddler and sick 4 year old. Yes, I still want the prescriptions filled.

We head home and see daddy and then I head back to target to pick up the rx. I pick up the 2/4 prescriptions that are ready. Same rudeness from pharmacy tech.

Needing a moment to myself, I wander through the women's clothes department. There, a random 20 year old guy stops me and asks if I'm old enough to vote. (he must be friends with the cashier at Walmart that I tried to buy spray paint from.) long story short, he was trying to sell magazine subscriptions. Thanks, but no thanks, dude.

I call Brian to tell him I got the rx and to keep Micah up until I get there so that he can start the antibiotic. Micah asks me if I got drumsticks and of course I forgot during my two trips to target so I tell him I will stop at Walmart on the way home.

After that I hop into my car. I'm pulling out of the parking lot when the guy driving across from me runs a stop sign and then flips me off! I have the right of way, he had a stop sign! So annoying.

Stop at Walmart. Get drumsticks. Contemplate buying out the liquor aisle. Decide to treat myself to a smart water instead. Leave.

I arrive home and Brian put Micah to bed. Ugh. Yes, obviously a miscommunication and probably due in part to video games, but whatever. The entire reason I went to target tonight was so he could start his meds and the entire reason I went to Walmart was for the freaking drumstick that I promised him. Fortunately, Micah is still awake. He takes his meds, eat his drumstick and goes back to bed. While in bed we hear him over the monitor chanting "my bed is too dark! My bed is too dark!" Uhm, ok? #gotobedkid

Brian graciously goes in and re-tucks him in.

I am done with this day.

Living life.

So, we've been living in California for 3 months now. In a way it seems like forever, but in other ways it seems like a blink. I miss the routine we had in north Carolina and I miss my friends SO much. I miss Micah and Brian having friends too!

Here we keep busy with homeschool preschool, playing outside, and running around. :) we've had our first week of health since we arrived here this past week. The flu has made it's rounds twice, and there were various other ailments around too. Boo! That seems to have come to an end because both kids are snotty and coughy again.

We need to make some friends. ASAP. There have been weeks that Brian and I have only talked to each other. We need friends! Please pray that we all find some here soon. We're just far enough away from the OC that we can't really see our old friends. Micah needs friends too. He's going through "studio kids" withdrawal.

Monday.

A. I have the cutest kids ever. For real. I love them so much it makes my heart hurt.

B. speaking of hurt, I have had a headache for 8 days straight. I've tried: ice, heat, Advil, Tylenol, motrin, norco, caffeine, water, sleep, and massage and nothing helps. :( it feels like someone is taking sheet metal and shoving it from the base of my head/top of neck and through my brain and into my forehead. Any prayer and suggestion would be appreciated.

C. I'm going to the rheum on Thursday and will hopefully start some different meds. Ideally, they will help the headache too!

Camera stealers!

Micah and grayson have learned how to work the camera on my phone... This is what I found the other morning!

Lovey love.

Happy valentine's day, friends!

A day in Facebook stati.

9:30am
Lovey love! Happy valentines day! My valentine let me sleep in today! Holla!

11:30am
Ate lunch at big mama's soul food. They have 4 beverages on the menu: tea, sweet tea, lemonade and kool aid!

1:30pm
It amazes how some people get jobs. They had to interview with somebody, right?!

2:30pm
Just left target and heard a little girl say, "look, dad, a chicken!" it was a pigeon. awesome.

3:00pm
Checking out of Walmart with spray paint. The cashier eyes me and snidely says, "you look a little young for 18." I responded, "my husband and two children beg to differ. I'm 25."
Idiot.

5:30pm ice cream for dinner! A huttlinger family tradition!

8:00pm oh, cuss. We left Micah's monkey at the restaurant we ate lunch at. Gah! Hoping they still have it.

8:05pm they have it! Crisis averted!

And this is what you missed in lindsayland today

Taking a break.

I have decided to delete Facebook off of my phone for lent. I have been feeling like I spend way too much time on there during the day and I don't need to be doing that. I know that it is partially a way to connect with my friends in north Carolina that I miss terribly, but partially also just an insane, addicting habit.

I have been reading a mom blog (www.71toes.com) and this mom is just such an inspiration in regards to intentional parenting. Yes, she is mormon, and probably crafty, but she has a whole lot of wisdom! Kids are such an awesome gift and I want to be mentally present and physically present during my time with them. I just want to make the most of each day. Yes, it's a lofty goal, but I don't need to be checking Facebook while I'm pushing Grayson on the swing! I want to be consistent, and loving and there. I only have a few months until Micah starts kindergarten. Sob.

So, here's to new habits!
Happy Lent!

Edited to add:
I asked Micah if I should delete Facebook from my phone. He responded, "is that the app that is blue with a white" and then Drew his finger in the air to make an f. My almost kindergartener struggles to count to 10 and say his entire alphabet. That was enough of a mind shift for me to seal the deal!

Fashion Friday! Swimsuit edition.

While it has been colder than i expected it would be here in the desert, we definitely have some swimmable days! I made the mistake of buying Micah a mostly white swimsuit, and duh, it's see through. He's growing like a weed too, so it's becoming time for a new one! I break my no cartoon rule for swimsuits. :) I go back and forth on the rashguard thing. I definitely like them for the sun protection they provide, but they also create some hardcore farmer's tans. I'd prefer that to skin cancer though, so I like to find cute, matching rashguards.

  

This shark suit set from Gymboree is cute, and they usually run sales, so they are definitely in the running. I think Micah will like it because of the sharks!

I am a sucker for aqua blue! It's my favorite happy color! This whale set also from gymboree is cute, but i don't know if i'm digging the short sleeve rashguard!

I love Carter's clothes. They are soft and well made and they last! They also have sales and coupons. My fave! I love blue and orange, and this set doesn't look baby-ish, and keeps micah covered!

How cute are the ruffles on this sweet, heart, one piece from Old Navy! I just love it!

Have you heard of Crew Cuts from J. Crew?! Holy cuteness! I love stripes and polka dots that "go" together (not match, necessarily) and this halter one piece and long sleeve rashguard are perfect for that!! I am really in love with the rashguard though! I think long sleeves are great for Grayson because she has some skin discoloration that becomes much more noticeable when she gets some sun, and boy, does that girl tan in the sun! I plan on scouting out the j crew outlet store nearby and crossing my fingers!!

The California girl in me loves Roxy! These swimsuits are for sizes 2t and up. sad face. I big pink puffy heart the ruching on the sides! 

 We are celebrating my mom's birthday in Mexico this summer, and so i think pictures will look better if micah and grayson are in coordinating suits!

Sweet, sick Gigi bear.

Grayson is really sick. Again. It's so sad. :( she just lays on us all day and takes 3 hour naps. The dr thinks it might be mono, but we dobt know for sure yet. I want her to start feeling better soon!

Today I'm Thankful.

I'm thankful for modern medicine and doctors that know when to use it.

I'm thankful that Brian could hang out with Gray so that I could ale Micah to gymnastics and to the park.

I'm thankful that God intentionally designed our bodies to work the way that they do and for fevers that cook the bad germs out.

I'm thankful for my really awesome husband.

I'm thankful for Netflix.

I'm thankful.

Homeschool Preschool

When we decided to move back to California I was so excited to get to spend more time with Micah everyday. I had been preparing lots of other Pre-Kers for Kindergarten at Preschool for the Arts and knew that Micah and I would get to spend some quality time together doing what we call "homework." I figure that I should get him used to the term now. :)

I put together a lesson plan for the month of January that works for us. There are lots of supermoms out there that can get it together enough to have themed books, projects, and activities. This month I am not that mom! My main focus is boosting independence. Micah would still like me to feed him dinner every night if it were up to him! I am also focusing on letter and number identification, and handwriting skills. As a guide/goal I use the common core standards  that are set for Kindergarten. This is a Nationwide initiative to get all schools districts on the same page academically. For inspiration, Pinterest is my bff. There are some awesome ideas on there! I have about 3 activities each day for us to do. Our activities in include gymnastics class, trips to the park, play dough making, baking cookies, reading a story and then making a craft, counting, coloring, singing, dancing, and lots of fun! I use some worksheet type pages for a starting off point.

I started by finding a lesson plan sheet on pinterest. I like this one a lot. It's not the perfect one for me, but until I make my own it works well. I plan four weeks at a time. There are 8 lines available for weeks, so I use two for each week. The first one I use to fill in with our big activity for the day (park, gymnastics, bible-study, baking cookies, make slime or playdough, library, and laundry day! Laundry is the household task I struggle the most with, so I figure it can't hurt to schedule a day every week that everyone gets on board to help! I hope to change it to something fun when I get the laundry under control...) On the second line for the week I write in what book, project or worksheet we will use for the day.
 

Then I print all of the worksheets needed for the month. In my binder I keep the lesson plan and then use dividers to separate each week. On Sunday night I re-load Micah's binder with his homework for the week and in his binder there are dividers that separate each sheet by the day.

Some of the activities I have used are:

 
Matching letters using magnetic alphabet letters on a cookie sheet from Make Take Teach.


This collection of worksheets from Super Mom Moments is awesome (and free! holla!)

The best resource I have found though is 1+1+1=1
This is one of those supermoms that has it all together, and I thank her for sharing these awesome resources with us. She has awesome printable packs with themes like Angry Birds, Skylanders, Doc McStuffins, and so much more!
This letter tracing pack is available in her Teacher's notebook store and was a whopping $1.25. SOOOOO worth it. It also explains the process of learning to write, as well as the order to teach each letter.


I made a homework tub that has pencils, scissors, a highliter, crayons, glue sticks, and regular glue so that all of the needed supplies stay together.

So far, Micah seems to enjoy the one on one attention he gets during homework time and I can't wait to see his skills develop and his readiness for Kindergarten become even more apparent!

Fashion Friday! Girls Edition

Can I just share with you all how much I love clothes? How much, you may ask. The answer is a lot. a lot. a lot! Especially little girls clothes. Sweet Jeebus they make me happy! Today, I am going to pretend to be a fashion blogger. don't laugh, ok? 

I spend many an evening "window shopping" online and browsing in stores. I think the best part about little girls clothes is the whimsy that goes with them. They just say happiness all the time! I don't like when there are dumb words or cartoonish things all over everything either. basically, i like mini adult outfits, but a caricature of adult outfits. They take the best parts of adult outfits and blow them out of proportion to make them awesome! Here are some of my favorite outfits and places to browse. :)

Matilda Jane Clothing is both ridiculously cute and ridiculously expensive! Oh, how i adore it from afar though. The stripe dress on the right is such an unexpected color combination for a little girl, and the outfit on the left I wish came in my size!

Ruffle pants always look clownish to me, and I think only little girls can rock that look well. I full intend on taking advantage of that fact for Grayson as long as I can. With a cute bib top (like the one below) the clown ruffle pants are great! I'm also a sucker for ruffle bloomers. They are such a pain to wash because when you dry ruffles they get all wonky... so I have to remember to hang dry them. That rarely happens in my house. :)    

After I wipe the drool off my face, I like to check out places that are actually in my price range. Cotton on Kids just launched their online store in the US. I love them. How cute is this dress and romper?! They also have the best bibs ever. Like in existence. They are perfect! 

 I think I would be shunned if I didn't also mention my life-long love and devotion to babygap. For reals, can I get these in my size?! SO cute! I think my favorite style of girls clothing is fun girly pieces like dresses and skirts but in "boy colors" (I hate that term. I want to paint a sparkly pink chevron wall in the kids' room just to fight gender stereotypes. and because i like glitter.) and Gap does that well!

I am so thankful for these sweet little models that let me play dress up everyday! And let's not forget that the bow completes the outfit. Any outfit.